Originally created on Facebook and how I was feeling.  Not too much humor here because I can find non in the situation.

Alien-Nation

Here I am getting ready for bed and all I can think about is the country I live in and the "alien-nation" attitude that is going on. I have friends from all religions, races, cultures and from all walks of life, rich and poor, gun owners and pacifists. I appreciate every one of them for who they are. I consider myself really middle class of America. I don't like what is happening to/in this country any more than anyone else but I can tell you I will always keep my friends from all walks of life no matter who likes it or who approves of it. It keeps me balanced. You're either a good person or a bad person and you will act accordingly. I can't help but notice the amount of prayer that's flung around on FB and other social media sites from the same people that are quick to snap to judgment, point fingers, and blame. Our alien-nation is in a war. Maybe, just maybe we should extend our grace (personally) to listen and understand someone rather than judge them. I don't blame our President as I don't blame those that relate to any other Presidential candidate. How you feel about a situation, is how you feel about a situation. I won't judge you for feeling that way. This is our nation and you have the freedom of thought just like I have the freedom of speech. Unless you are Native American you and/or your family came from somewhere else and became an American. This time of year if we can't have peace can we at least have tolerance. I realize some "friends" may not be friends anymore because I posted this and if that's what you need to do then by all means I am okay with the "unfriend or block" buttons and I'm sure you are too. I just need to get it off my brain. Michael and Julie I think as I age you're rubbing off on me. Just my thoughts today and with that I bid you goodnight.

Twenty

I wrote this (sort of) Poem tonight to deal with what I was feeling about the tragedy today in Newtown, CT, particularly the children.  I think it helped me cope to put it on paper. I'm sharing.

Twenty

Eyes wide with amazement, holiday hope.

Shattered by cracks from a gun.

Wide-eye amazement flickers to fear.

Run! Hide! Cover your eyes.

There is no hope with fear so near.

Scattering, like the plumes from an angel.

Light, floating, feathers lifting your soul.

Protecting you on the journey.

Heaven awaits your little hearts.


http://www.cnn.com/2012/12/14/us/connecticut-school-shooting/index.html?hpt=hp_t1

Rise Up for your personal rights!

So here's the article that just set me off to write again:
http://news.yahoo.com/hilarious-tsa-note-womans-vibrator-142200267.html
Okay, I now have to leave my personal possessions at home when I go to work, when I get into my car and now when I pack something. I have to leave my thoughts in my head for fear of being criticized, being canned at a job or from someone mistakenly being offended because I didn't measure every word before it came out of my mouth. I think we are becoming more like Russia every minute. (TSA = KGB with no intelligence) If you don't recognize that we have slowly lost many rights including the one to make a decision about how or what we take when we travel. While I'm not convinced packing a vibrator was the right choice, at least the choice existed and was made.
If they have the equipment to see all the way down to our body through an xray machine why don't they have the same for packed luggage? We should be allowed to lock our personal posessions, especially when flying domestically. I guess to some degree I agree with extra searches for international travel because there are many things out there we have yet to discover that may be very destructive and we may not be able to recognize them in their natural state. Searches of luggage could catch that. I totally agree that it isn't the brighest bulbs in the pack that are working these TSA positions. Having been totally F'd with on a trip about a year ago over something very stupid (and I fly a LOT). Additionally, I listened to an older female TSA employee (I refuse to call them agents because that would take a level of respect I can't muster) comment on the attractiveness of a particular male business traveler (ooohhh -- eee he sure is hot!) who then proceeded to give him some grief just so she could talk with him (or as she said make a connection). You can't make this stuff up. They can say whatever they feel but god forbid you ever make any kind of joke in a TSA line.

RISE UP for your rights and for the personal freedom we continue to lose daily.

The "back" things in life...

Just wanted to do a short post because I guess you must be wondering by now how I did with the open MRI and EMG. Open MRI was a success and I just wonder why anyone would ever do any other type. I had the EMG (Electromyography) on the same day I did the MRI's. I decided if I was to be tortured, I just wanted it all to be over in the same day. So the day after picking up the new puppies (which I will write about next), I went and had all of these tests done. For those of you in the know, my Orthopedic told me that the EMG would be extremely painful and yes, it was uncomfortable but nowhere even close to the pain I have everyday caused by this neck/back problem.

I went back for results for all of those tests this past Monday (10/18). Everything they indicated and more is going on in my back. In addition to the pain, I also have frequent numbness in my hands and lower arms. In addition to feeling very strange it causes some clumsy moves from time-to- time. The results affirmed the arthritis in the back and that is causing a narrowing of where the nerves enter the spinal cord, hence the numbness. There is a similar problem in my lower back. With that my doctor discharged me to a back doctor, who very appropriately is named Dr. Rumi. (I wonder just how many patients he has with arthritis?) It's kind of like going to a podiatrist called Dr. Corn or Dr. Foot. It does make me laugh when I think about it. I always thought that list of doctors that comes across in my email once in a while was fictitious. I guess there really are doctors with names appropriate for their chosen specialty. Laugh here because I know you all thought they were fake too.

Monday morning I will get up with a positive attitude and go see Doctor Rumi to see if there is anything he can do to improve my painful status. That way I could stay on here just a little longer and get some things (writing) done.

With that said, for most people all of this would be a bad thing but I choose to make it a "back" thing and plug along the only way I know how...forward.

Be well until next time...

~D

Just breathe...

Once again after a little break I'm back. I guess you might say I have been on a journey. A journey that has been frustrating. Although I learned something new about me, I almost think I'd be better off not knowing.

One of the reasons I've been writing less frequently is that I am in total and complete pain when sitting at the computer for any length of time. Unless I take something for it and we all know how ambitious anything we take for pain makes us. Not to mention the senseless schlock my brain would be committing to the perpetuity of the Internet. Finally, after putting it off for some time, I went to the doctor as I thought I might have carpal tunnel syndrome. After so many years on the computer, I just figured it caught up with me. Not so much.

What I've now learned about my body is that I have bulging discs in my neck. In my lower back I have a slipped disc. Not to mention that the arthritis that I have had intermittently in my fingers has also positioned itself in the bones of my spine. I have many bone spurs, so that even if they get the disc problem under control eventually this arthritis with time will become more of a problem. Not the news I expected or wanted to hear but hey I've dealt with a lot worse in my time and the people closest to me know that I speak the truth. I always have been and always will be the proverbial cat that still lands on its feet. After all, I haven't used up all of my nine lives, only 3 of them. I've still got the magic number 6 left. Insert snicker here for those that will get this plague of 6.

But still with all that news, that's not what I learned about myself. Following the x-rays my doctor wanted me to get two MRI's and an EMG. I was scheduled to go have the MRI's this past Tuesday. I never thought anything about it and left work early to go for my appointment. It's just the nature of my job that I usually end up being early for appointments because I get when the getting is good. I got to the doctors office and checked in. The MRI tech got all ready and I was ready so we started. The loud ticking of the machine wasn't scary but looking into that tiny space of the MRI was.

You all know that I am a bigger person so I asked. The tech was very reassuring that I would fit fine so I calmed down, laid down and focused on getting this two hours of my life over with. I would do anything to get out of this pain. Well I guess I should restate that to be almost anything. After placing the plate over my face the machine began to slide me head first into the machine and as the machine covered my face panic set in. I am not a panicky person so I tried to convince myself this is just a medical test I can take it. I inched a little further into the machine and this overwhelming feeling of being buried alive consumed me. My eyes are closed, hands were crossed on my body and I truly felt that this must be how it must feel to be dead. PANIC and I mean it in a screaming way. I was hitting that panic button for all it was worth and punching the sides of the machine to get out. I cannot tell you how it felt when they finally got me out but needless to say, I've never taken a better breath of air in my life than at that moment my head came out of the machine.

The MRI tech tried to be understanding and tried to calm me down but all I wanted was to be out of there. I went to the reception desk, explaining that I couldn't go through with the procedure because I felt like I was in a casket. To which the dimwit at the desk replied, "Well how do you know that? Have you ever been in one?" All of you that know me very well know I think fast so I replied "Well, I do know that I have several family members that are in one and I don't want to be the next to try it out, even in practice." Needless to say that pretty much shut her up.

Now we get to the point, here is what I learned about myself. I suffer from a bit of claustrophobia. I have been in many tight places including the little round cylinder in the airport where they lock you in and run air over your body to analyze the results and that's a pretty small space. I never had this problem before, so where did it come from? The intelligent side of me tells me that this is a routine test that millions of people have everyday with no problem but the illogical fear still rules my brain. I just can't get past this one.

I have now scheduled an open MRI for the same day I have the EMG on October 7th. I have heard that the open MRI is similar to a CAT Scanner and I've had that before without incident. So I'm hopeful that I will be able to have that done. They have informed me that if they can't do the open MRI that I would have to be put to sleep to have the test done. Without the test they cannot treat. Let's hope that I don't have to be put to sleep (like a sick dog) to have this test done. I'll report back because I know you'll all be waiting to read more about my medical adventures.

If it's any consolation, I'll be staying at a hotel in Dallas from Sunday to Wednesday and most of you already know how many wonderful adventures I have when I stay in hotels. Can you feel that sarcasm coming through yet?

I thought so... until next time...

~D~

Burning....

I can't help but notice the irreverent hoopla surrounding the recent activity by the Reverend Terry Jones of the 50 member Dove World Outreach Center in Gainesville, FL who plan to burn the Quran this coming Saturday. Talk about media attention! Phew! I haven't heard a newscast yet that isn't regurgitating it about every five seconds. All the while, General Petraeus is warning that proceeding with the plan could instigate violence against our troops and citizens still overseas. Like we haven't already provoked them just by invading their country? Give me a break. We went to a country where we weren't wanted for a nonexistent reason and way overstayed any minimal welcome we might have initially had. Oh, did I mention we were there for a nonexistent reason? Well, I just can't say that enough. We still haven't caught Bin Laden who appears to be still around spreading hate and discontent to anyone who'll listen.

Here is the link to this story: http://www.chicagotribune.com/news/nationworld/la-na-koran-burning-20100908,0,7795425.story

So does burning the Quran seem like such a bad thing in light of all of the bad things that have already been done to our troops and citizens overseas? I didn't see us over here killing Muslims the last time the Muslims celebrated overseas in the town square by burning our flags and effigies of our political figures. I mean enough already.

Is a show of burning the Quran as a freedom of speech display to support a religious organization's belief against the very real atrocities of the radical Muslims such an outrage in light of the number of our military troops (among others) who have lost their lives? Those men & women are fighting for our right to be able to have this type of protest. I don't think anything should happen to the troops or citizens that may be there but if the radical Muslims have their way they would be decapitated and for a reason far less than burning the Quran.

I could understand the Muslim outrage at our actions if we're going to take 50 Muslims (because we don't know which ones may be radical) and burn them in the street. In my opinion, it wouldn't even begin to be close to equal to the number of Americans that have already lost their lives due to the radical Muslims. For doing nothing more than just being in the wrong place at the wrong time.

I am a bit radical by nature and I tend to think to the extreme. So while I'll probably not light a Quran on fire, not out of respect or due to my religious beliefs but because I believe in the "people's" right to live their lives the way they see fit. I believe in the rights we adopted under the Constitution and not the continually evolving interpretations used to create more control. The Constitution is about rights, not control. We need to start being more sensitive to people's rights and not so hung up on control. Most of the fight about issues in our country are about control and not rights. Under my first amendment right, it is my right to say, if you're a Muslim in America, I am open to accepting you in my country and my life, however, if you're a radical Muslim who has a plan to hurt even one American then you need to leave this country. Do not pass go and do not collect $200.

Now that we're on the subject, this has a direct tie to the rights that the people in New York are talking about when it comes to the Mosque building. Yes. You have the right to build a Mosque under our Constitution and Reverend Terry Jones and his followers have the right to destroy a copy of the Quran if they choose, after all the Constitution provides us the right to practice all religions. Reverend Terry Jones (and parishioners) believe that in the freedom allowed to practice their religion and under their first amendment rights they are able to burn a book (the Quran) that isn't part of their religion. Religious freedom and freedom of speech. Two of our most basic Constitutional rights have turned both the Mosque issue and the Quran burning threat into an exercise in control rather than a battle of rights.

Just like Greg Gutfield has the right to build a gay bar on the corner by the Mosque and just like someone else has the right to build a Texas authentic Barbecue on the other side of the Mosque. (See my earlier post on this issue.) This is a free country for the most part (however, I add here for emphasis little by little we are losing our freedom).

So in ending tonight my point is this and I've been saying it all week: Just because you have a right to do something, that in and of itself doesn't make it right no matter how much justification you can provide.

Think about it.

Until the next time ~D

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